Resolution

I think everybody makes the resolution to lose weight, get healthy or stop tobacco why don’t you hear people say I’m going to stop being such a jerk, or I’m going to stop being a cheater for New Years lol. It seems people always give up on them by February or March. I have made the same resolution for 11 years now thanks to my old roommate Will, he decided we would not do heroin and guess what I’VE STUCK TO IT lol. I know I’m a dork but come on it’s kind of funny.

This last year has been such a roller coaster, having Delilah after only 25 weeks of being pregnant (thank god I made it to 25 weeks) watching her struggle in the beginning and almost losing her, I am so very thankful for the technology and medicine out there to treat little tiny babes. My faith in god and in people was reaffirmed with having Delilah, people I didn’t even know (and still don’t know) amazed me with their concern and prayers.

I met some new amazing people I truly hope stay in my life forever, I reconnected with some old friends through facebook and I hope we can reconnect in 2012 in real life instead of just through the computer. I have lost some people I loved dearly and I miss them everyday.

I know there are times I get stressed out and feel like nothing will ever turn out right but it always does. Even when the world flips upside down and I feel the floor slipping from underneath of me I have such amazing people in my life who flip the world right side up and rebuild the floor under my feet. I know I don’t say it much but THANK YOU! I appreciate everything everybody does for me.

As most of you know I started a new career adventure, I am an Independent Consultant for Thirty-One, https://www.mythirtyone.com/VGerman/ in 2012 I am hoping and praying I do amazing with this! I have already started having fun with it and I hope that continues and gets BIGGER! (Book a party and help me out lol) there are some other thing’s I am hoping works out in 2012 but I will keep those a secret for now.

I am team captain of Little Raisinets for the March of Dimes walk April 29^th (please donate by clicking on the logo to the right) I hope to have a lot of fun raising money for our team. We have a Zumba Benefit in the works for March 4^th at Studio 215 in Holly. We already have an amazing wine tasting to auction off during the benefit and more in the works.

This year I don’t think I am going to make a resolution (other then the heroin thing lol) but I will make a promise to myself. I will hold my head high no matter what life throws at me, I will be more open with the people in my life, I will reconnect (if you’ll let me) with those in my life who want to reconnect with me, I will love myself more and live life instead of sitting on the sidelines.

Be safe tonight and have fun.

Hugs and love!

My December

I know it’s been forever since I have posted on here, but that just means life has been a bit uneventful, or there are thing’s I’m trying to figure out how to say thing’s and say them in the most profound words I can.

December 11^th I found out my sassy little friend Cheyanne past away. She was 8 months old when she past away. I met Cheyanne and her mom Stacy in the NICU when Delilah was born, Dr.Martin got Stacy and I talking, and it never seemed to stop lol. In the way we met I feel we became close rather fast but when you deal with what we did you get close to people in the same situation. I miss little sassy more then words can say, I’m sorry I didn’t get a chance to go see her, I’m sad I didn’t get a chance to go to the funeral, but I am thankful I got to know her and have her in my life. I believe people are put on this world for a reason no matter how short or long. They are put in our lives for one reason or another, we may never see the reason but we know there was something and our hearts are forever changed by them.

Cheyanne on World Prematurity Day rocking the purple! 

Because of Cheyanne and Delilah being so early I met an amazing women with the most strength I have seen in a person. I met Stacy. I admire her strength and her faith in God, she has so many qualities I would like my daughters to have. I asked Stacy to be Delilah’s Godmother! Now Delilah and Aria have an Aunt Stacy in their lives!

The pins we are having made to wear for the March of Dimes walk in Memory of Cheyanne.

I turned 33 this year (December 14th) and my friends Becky, Carrie and Saera made it a great day! oh and Pam made me super yummy cupcakes! (I love cupcakes)

Delilah’s 1^st Christmas was great we spent time with my mom’s side of the family on Christmas Eve, both girls did really well even though it was past their bedtime. I tried getting Aria (2 ½ years old) excited about Santa and tracking him on Facebook. I think I was more excited then she was lol, next year she will be super excited I bet.

Full family picture with Mom and J

Delilah in her bumbo on Christmas morning

My stepson Ricky finally got to meet his youngest sister Delilah! Aria won’t leave him alone, which is awesome.

1st full family picture since Delilah was born

Delilah 7 1/2 months, Aria 2 1/2, Ricky 14.

Delilah and I went to go visit Dr.Martin for the 1^st time since she came home, she is a bit worried with Delilah’s movements and wanted to send her for am MIR to check her brain. Dr.Martin says Delilah is moving her arms to jerky and without purpose, so she is concerned it could be a form of CP (cerebral palsy) I am not worried and I told her to stop messing with my baby lol. We go for a 6 month adjusted age appointment in February so we will see what’s going on then. If she still moves that way we will have to get a MRI, if there is anything wrong we will start physical therapy.

Well that’s all I got for now (I think)

Hugs and love

lol had to share this picture, Rick and Aria "sleeping" with the new Kentucky blankets we got from Johnny and Laura. 

faith

In my life I have had my ups and downs, I lost my older brother in 1995 very suddenly he was the 1^st person I knew (personally) to die who wasn’t old (which is what happened when your old). My dad was less than a year in 1996 later no one knew what to think of his suicide. Saturday December 10^th (tomorrow) my dad would have turned 60 I miss him so much.

As you all know reading this blog we had a very hard time with my pregnancies and after was scarier then being pregnant. We had a miscarriage in May of 2010 that not many people know about I think of that baby everyday.

We have had (like everybody) financial ups and a down, relationship ups and downs just crazy life stuff that happens to us all. But the one thing I never lose sight of is faith.

Having faith that everything will be ok no matter how stressful life gets is what’s gotten me through my crazy life.

I was on facebook when I saw a post for a Youtube video, now I don’t normally watch these video’s but I had seen a lot of my friends had posted this once certain video so I figured ok ill watch it. There are no words just a young man and index cards, maybe it was the timing of me watching the video but I cried (yes I’m more emotional now I had my girls) but his message was what I needed to hear at that moment. I’m going to try and share the link on my blog (wish my luck I do it right)

With out all the stress and the craziness, the ups and downs losing people I love so much having to deal with scary micro preemie NICU insanity I wouldn’t be who I am today. I wouldn’t have met the people I have met. So I have faith God has a plan for me and it’s bigger then what I can see in front of me.

So if your ever sad of feeling depressed and you need someone to talk to I am here! I love you all (even if I don’t know you) Hugs and love!


http://youtu.be/0dgadTcVu60 I hope i did this right watch the video :)

Such a slacker

Today was the 2^nd round of Synergist for Delilah to protect her from lungs RSV, she got weighed and we found out she is 10lbs 12oz she is 7 months old (corrected age 3 ½ months). I was wondering how big Aria was at this age so I pulled out her baby book and realized how much of a slacker I am. I stopped writing in her book at 5 months. What is wrong with me? How can I have stopped writing in her book at 5 months she weighed 8lbs 1oz. I did find her 6month sheet from the Dr and she weighed 9lbs 8.8oz. hahahaha I have pictures of Aria in her book I just didn’t write in it.

I am also sad I haven’t made a book for Delilah. How many of use actually look at our baby books when we grow up?

So since this is kind of my baby book for Delilah let me tell you about her silliness! Today she sat up just holding my finger while at the doctors, we have tried veggies with her and she has NO interest in them she does do well with her oatmeal just no veggies. We will try again in a week or so; I’m sure she’s going to be just like her sister and HATE veggie and only like fruit. Aria could eat a whole cantaloupe if I let her.

Delilah loves her exasaucer but hates laying down, I think she gets mad cause she can’t see everything she wants to see. Darn world goes away and the ceiling is BORING! Funny how we think we know what our kids are thinking lol

Going through Aria’s baby book i saw this and wanted to share it with everyone.

“Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be.” 
― Shel Silverstein

Well guess that’s it for now, I am so not witty on paper. (or computer) I have so many funny thing’s I think to say as I drive or shower, just not when I’m anywhere I can put it down lol

Hugs and love <3

March of Dimes

This may sound dumb but you know I never knew anything about preeclampsia, or HELP syndrome, and to be even more honest I didn’t even know I had HELP syndrome with Aria until I got pregnant with Delilah.

There is so much that happened with each pregnancy that nobody knows about. It’s hard to talk about and even to remember all the details. All I knew with Aria was I couldn’t see her for 2-3 days and I was hooked up to a ton of thing’s. I found out later I was almost dead how scary is that to hear?

I have decided to do something to help people to get educated on preemie I am going to walk in the March of Dimes at Kensington in Milford. On April 29^th so far I know I have a great team and I hop it gets bigger. We have a lot of great ideas on fundraisers it’s going to be a lot of fun. if you’d like to join our team follow the link below. If you can't walk with us, please help by donating to our team. You can do so right on this page. Thank you for helping us give all babies a healthy start!

http://www.marchforbabies.org/team/t1759986