Monday, May 30, 2011

Delilah is thinking, "what shall I do today?"

Delilah has been doing really good the last few days, sorry I haven't posted on here in awhile we've had a busy weekend and I really haven't had time to do anything on the comouter. plus Aria has been a little demanding with my time :)

Delilah has been having a few issues with her sugar again and she decided not to tolerate her feedings, so they have been changing the formula she get's and her sugar intake. She dropped down in wieght a little bit but went back up to 1.7lbs today :)

The big thing they are watching now is her heart again, she has a blood clot in one of her valves which is from the IV she had in, she is getting blood thinners to hopefully help it disolve. If a piece of it brakes off it could cause a stroke or heart attack so they are watching her very cloesly she will get another echo in about a week in a half.

she is doing super good with her oxygen and they lowered it to 1.5liters instead of 2liters.

Delilah next to daddy's hand at 24 days old.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

May 25th

Delilah is weighing in at 1lbs 6oz; she has been gaining about 30grams a day, which is great. She is doing great on her new breathing machine while I was there she dipped down a few times but she caught herself and did well. A few times the nurse turned up her oxygen to help her but that’s ok. They went up on her feedings to 2.5ml; I told Delilah today she got banana splits, which I got a little grin from her on that.

Amanda Eggert got to go with me and meet Delilah for the 1st time, Delilah had another head ultra sound today and a chest echo we should have those back in a day or so. Nothing big to write about today, Delilah is just taking it easy and getting big and strong so she can home and have a party planned for her once we are settled in.

We still anticipate her to be home around August 17th, which is her due date. But once she’s home we will have a come meet Delilah diaper shower cookout!

Hugs and love to all reading.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Wow

I really wish I knew more about how to make stuff, like walkers, or bouncers, and cloths! People don’t understand how different preemies are and that they don’t always grow as fast as full term kids. We had a walker for Aria that she could never reach the floor in when she sat in it. Also I really wish I had a sewing machine so I could make petti skirts (the fluffy multi color skirts) and the bloomers with ruffle butts! They are so freaking cute but yet again NO ONE makes these for preemies, and I would love to so people like me can still have cute pictures for our tiny tots.

Delilah is back on 2ml feedings, 2ml every hour for 5 hours then an hour off check her belly and repeat. Tomorrow is another head ultra sound and heart echo, just to make sure she’s still ok and that everything closed up like it’s suppose to.

BIG NEWS!!! Delilah is now breathing on her own, she has a nose canula in with oxygen attached and flowing in her nose a little but not like the vent did. She is amazing us all everyday with all that her little body is doing! I just cant believe how big she seems to be!

She is now weighing 1lbs 5oz it’s great she’s gaining about 30grams a day and hoping it keeps going that way.

Monday, May 23, 2011

The same

Today there was alot of the same, they did start feedings again today she's starting back at 1ml every hour for 5 hours then 1 hour off. Delilah finally got above her birth weight and is now 1lbs 4oz tomorrow they may try taking her off the CPAP and put her on high flow nose canulla which is on oxygen not a vent.

Delilah with her 1st pacifier

trying to win

ok friends I am trying to win ALOT of stuff from Lovella Bowtique they have the cutest freakin stuff, and all there venders that donated look so darn cute! I would love to win this stuf for littel Delilah so I can get some amazing pictures of her and adorable clothes check out this link!

http://lovellabowtiqueblog.blogspot.com/2011/05/lovellabowtiquecom-website-launch.html

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Along for the ride

In the last 17 days I have heard countless people tell Rick and I how strong we are for going though what we’re going through, for the 2nd time I don’t feel it’s us who are strong it’s our kids we’re just along for the ride. I cant just walk away from my daughters cause they were born early, I cant fix either of them or console when their get poked at countless times a day. All I can do is sit there and pray God has a bigger plan for all of us and that hopefully we see the big picture one day.

I have had my issues with believing in God and trusting he knows best (those who know me know what I have been through and what I have lost to where I feel this way) but he has shown us with Aria he is listening. So far with Delilah he has shown he is listening, I hope he keeps listening so my prayers sound like prayers and not non-stop begging. Delilah is a tiny tot but very feisty and so damn beautiful! I am truly amazed and in awe of my girls and the strength they have (and don’t even know it).

Delilah is 17 days old today! She weighs 540 grams (that’s 1lbs 3oz) she gained 30 grams since yesterday, she had lasiks yesterday to help get rid of her chest congestion and is more alert today (while I was there she slept the whole time lol) she is on 25% oxygen with her CPAP still in (it’s a step up from a true nose canula) in a couple of days they are talking about taking her off the CPAP and putting her on the regular canula which is different oxygen and a step from breathing on her own.

There have still been a few issues with her blood sugars, which they think they figured them out by lowering her sugar in her TPN to 5%. They had to stop feedings for a day or 2 cause she has a spot on her belly that sometimes looks gray and sometimes looks normal, they checked her for infection did X-rays the whole nine yards and everything looks great and she’s showing no signs of been sick. But since she’s so little and so preemie holding the feedings is a safety precaution to make sure her intestine doesn’t get messed up.

Her nurses are AMAZED at how little she is and how great she’s doing. We’re hoping she isn’t sick in her tummy and feedings can start back up tomorrow, and praying she gains some weight on her skinny little frame!! Well praying for more then that but you people already know that hahaha.

Again thank you to all of you praying and for keeping up on our tiny little tot, knowing so many people out there care so much blows me away, and you all give me strength to get through this roller coaster that’s my life.  I love you all!

Sorry it's such a dark picture, if you look close you can see she's smiling :)

Saturday, May 21, 2011

highs and lows

Today Delilah’s sugar has been bouncing all over the place; they are changing her TPN (nutrition and vitamins) and the glucose in it to see if that helps her. She is not acting or looking sick and there is no infection in her blood the X-ray on her belly looked great and the lungs looked a little hazy which is normal for a preemie.

She is getting a pacifier since she’s trying to suck the IV in her arm haha I was informed her pacifier is the size of her head. She is still getting 2ml an hour for 5 hours and 1 hour off.  Hoping they get the sugar figured out.

Friday, May 20, 2011

a little happy

I dont't really have much to say today, just loving the fact Rick got to hold Delilah for the 1st time today :) She is doing really well with her feeding's they were going to up what she get's. (not sure how much now Rick forgot lol)

Delilah is showing us all how great god is and yes I believe this with all my heart. Keep praying for the tiny tot she is showing us all she's a fighter. 


Rick holding Delilah for the 1st time!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Breathing easier

As Rick got to the NICU he found Delilah off the vent and on a canula (tubes in her nose) and they had started feeding her at noon today. She has been on TPN (protein and nutrition stuff) until her tummy was mature enough to handle formula. They are going to put a new IV in called a pick line instead of in her belly button.

Delilah was giving Rick big smiles and opening her eyes a lot for him, she seemed to just want daddy and since he wasn’t feeling very well this week today was his 1st time seeing her since last Saturday. Dr.Martin is surprised how well she’s doing and so are we.

I just called and checked on Delilah and she is getting 1ml every hour for 5 hours and then 1hour off with the food. They check her tummy for leftover food and there was a little bit left this 1st feeding. They did get the pick line in her right arm and it's a good location, when they change her TON they will switch the location it goes into so they can take the IV out of her belly button.

I have to be honest I am still afraid something bad is going to happen, I’m trying not to get to excited cause the fear is there that bad is on the way. Prayers are getting me through this and knowing all of you care and are praying for little Delilah amazes me daily!

Delilah with the vent taken out and the canula in :)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Ready to explode

I am so freaking excited today! I am so beyond blessed and I love every one of you reading this!

When I got to St.Joes today I talked to Delilah’s nurse and was informed she did very well last night, she is on a very low setting on the vent. Dr.Pompati told me they are thinking of taking Delilah off the vent and putting her on a canula in a day or two and hopefully they will start feeding her tomorrow.

Dr.Martin surprised me today by letting me hold Delilah for the first time, I was so shocked we didn’t think this would happen for another month or so. They even let me hold her with the vent still in which shocked me!

I am so happy we’re back at St.Joe   I love all my nurses there and our Dr’s!!!

I still repeat the prayer in past post a few times a day and YES god is listening. I know we still have a long road ahead of us and we can have bad days coming, I am trying to stay positive and believe all the bad is behind us.

This helps put in perspective how small Delilah really is. This is the 1st day I got to hold her, she is 13 days old in this picture and weighing 1lbs 2oz (yes she lost some weight)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Angels are everywhere

I have heard of stories of people showing how amazing they were but have never experienced it in real life. This morning I got a text from a very close friend Thea who lives in Colorado, I haven’t seen Thea since sometime in high school since her family moved to a different school district and back then we didn’t have facebook to keep in touch but because of facebook we found each other again.

The text read the pastor at New life Church (broadcasted nationally) and his congregation (1000’sof people) said a prayer for your family in Sunday. A women Thea works with and I don’t know has been doing amazing thing’s, she is the one who got us on her churches pray list. I am amazed that people who don’t even know us are praying for us. One of my other close friends Jackie told me the day after Delilah was born, that we have people all over the world praying for us. I guess I didn’t really believe it for some reason.

But god has been listening and he is helping me see that he does care. Delilah had a great night last night and today so she was sent from Childrens hospital back to St.Joe! I got there before she did only cause the transfer team picked her up a little later then they thought they would. Once I was there Deb, Delilah’s nurse came out to talk to me about what was going to happen and what to expect tonight. Then Bonnie came out (another nurse) and she talked to me and how much I’ve missed them, it wasn’t long tell I saw them wheel Delilah back into the NICU St.Joe.

One of the other ladies from NICU came out to tell me she was there and what they were doing, then the transfer team (holy crap for a girl so little Delilah had 7 people transfer her) stopped and talked to me told me how pretty Delilah is and how great she did on the way over.

I was allowed in to the NICU while Deb worked on her (hooking up wires and IV’s all the fun stuff) Delilah was doing well and they were just going to let her rest tonight. We are expecting her to dip down a little bit because of the transfer, which is normal, but maybe not.

Monday, May 16, 2011

The power of prayer

When I called the NICU at Children’s hospital today I found out Delilah had a iffy night her blood sugar was bouncing everywhere again, which I’m told this is very normal for preemies. When they have infections or are under stress like surgery they sometimes have a problem with their blood sugar. So since Delilah had both happen they weren’t surprised at all that her sugar is wonky.

Once I was at the hospital today they informed me they were taking out her chest tube, and as long as the X-ray came back good and she remained stable until tomorrow am they would be sending her back to St.Joe tomorrow. When the Dr’s came in to take out the chest tube the realized it was already out hahaha Delilah took her chest tube out some how! Her X-ray came back looking good, so now were praying she will rock tonight. I have to tell you I’m getting very nervous I have been trying to call and check on her for an hour now and can’t get anyone on the phone! GGRRRR  BUT I am trying to stay positive.

I don’t know how many of you know this but I believe in psychics, and last year I had the opportunity to meet an amazing medium Rebecca Rosen. I was picked to go on air with Mojo in the morning and talk to Rebecca, well after getting some answers and clarity I bought her book called Spirited. It has literally been laying around the house for a year now, I had Rick bring it to the hospital once I was admitted but I never picked it up while I was there. I take it to the hospital everyday I go see Delilah so I have something to do other then stare at the walls.

Today there is a prayer I read and instantly fell in love with it, it is a prayer to help you let go and stop trying to control everything in your life (those who really know me know I’m not patient AT ALL) here’s the prayer: (I added to it a little)
“There’s only so much I can control please place your hands on Delilah and help her to heal and grow healthier. Please give me clarity, help, and guidance, and the peace of mind to let the day unfold just like it is meant to. I know positive thing’s are on the way. I surrender!”

Honestly 10 min after I said this prayer I got all the news that she could be going to back to St.Joe tomorrow morning. I still pray she’s doing well tonight and gets transferred, I don’t know how long we can afford driving back and forth to Detroit.

Delilah had a very big yawn as I took the picture :)

Sunday, May 15, 2011

stress and no sleep

I guess I got to cocky yesterday not posting a blog since Delilah was doing so amazing, she had such a great day! They took her off the oscillator vent and put her back on the conventional vent, they took an IV out so she’s down to one not two. BUT at 2am we got a phone call that thing’s went down hill and fast.

Whenever you get a call from the NICU it’s never a good call, at 2am we got a call telling us Delilah had bleeding in her lungs again, (yes that’s what the surgery was suppose to stop) they couldn’t figure out why there was bleeding but it was minimal and they got it to stop. She also had a problem with her blood sugar it was really super high then dropped really low, this we’re told is very normal in micro preemies (which she is).

I didn’t sleep well cause I was afraid id miss another call from the NICU, they told us not to come down that they were watching her and trying new thing’s to find out what was going on with her. They found she has an infection in her lungs that is caused from the ET tubes (part of the vent) so she’s on 2 antibiotics for the infection. She is now in isolation she is in a room with 2 other babies that have the same infection. We have to wear gowns as soon as we walk in the room and gloves if we want to touch her, we try not to touch her since it stresses her out when she is messed with, we can let her hold our finger a little and she has a good tough grip!

While I was there today she started to become stable again, her blood gases were looking good and her blood sugar became normal. It’s so hard feeling so helpless and just being able to watch her, I want to hold and comfort my little princess I want to kiss her and make her feel better.

I do still believe in god, I pray (more like beg) almost 24/7! Delilah is 10 days old today and it feels like a month has gone by, this is by far the hardest thing Rick and I have ever gone through. I know in a year will forget how hard this was and it will become a little blip in our mind, but right now it takes all I have not to cry all day.

I have to tell you all how amazing Rick is! He is the strongest person I have ever known and he makes me stronger, with him by my side I know I can make it though this and hopefully with my hair still brown and on my head! I love him so freaking much and I hope you know it even though I have my times where I take a lot out on him (that he doesn’t deserve).

Friday, May 13, 2011

the heart of it all

Sorry it took awhile to post this  but the blog site was down last night for some reason.

on 5-12 Delilah had more bleeding in her lung's, which has been caused by a valve in her heart called the ductus (sp sorry) this valve closes when babies are born full term, while babies are inside mommy this valve helps send air and blood to the lungs (normal functions) but once born a preemie it doesnt always close. We thought it closed and it would stay closed but the bugger fooled us.

Delilah was transfered to Childrens hospital in Detroit where she had surgery this morning 5-13, which went well. We were first told the surgery lasted 2 hours but once the surgen came in to talk to us he said 20-30 min (she was already preped and ready at that point) when we got back up to the NICU she was doing really good, still sedated but her blood gases looked really good for going through surgery.

Once she is stable they will be transfering her back to St.Joe in Pontiac, we are hoping this happens Monday. Since they fixed her heart we are hoping this helps other aspects of development, like her lungs and her tummy, once she has some air in her belly they can start trying to feed her (she has been getting nutrition since she was born but no "food") feeding her is our next big hurrdle, making sure her body can handle it and everything works right.

Yes she has a feeding tube, it will some time before they start trying to use a bottle to feed her. we have to take thign's slowly and work our way up once they are able to feed her thats when she will start putting on the weight (we hope) for all we know by the time she comes home she could be over 5lbs :)

Thank you to all who have and who are still praying for our little princess we love you all

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

just coasting along

When I got to the NICU this afternoon I was informed Delilah was doing great, her blood gases were improving well and she was tolerating the new vent really well. She did great with her little bath that she got and didn’t get agitated at all. While I was there I was allowed to let her hold my finger for a little bit and she actually squeezed it and it melted my heart.

I just called the NICU and Delilah’s blood gases didn’t come back as good as they had hoped but it’s not a bad thing, they just had to change a few settings on her vent. But right now we’re just kind of coasting along, and praying thing’s keep going smoothly.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Dr.Martins BFF

I apologize to those of you who have been waiting for me to post my blog's lol I usually wait until the evening of late afternoon, this way rounds are done and everything with Delilah is decided for the day.

When I called the NICU this am to see if she did well through the night our nurse today was very happy with how well she did and how she tolerated everything. I told her Rick would be the one up there to visit today so I could have an Aria day J (I needed this so bad) and also we have to take turns going to visit and staying home when we don’t have a sitter, sadly gas is to expensive for us to make 2 trips a day up there.  While Rick was there he said Delilah did really well, she was kicking and moving her arms but not in an agitated way.

While we were getting dinner ready I got a call from the NICU and I’m telling you I never felt my heart stop until I started getting calls from there. This was a good call though, Dr.Martin was calling to let me know Delilah was her BFF today and was doing amazing today!!!!!!!!!!! They had to do a blood and platelet transfusion yesterday and she handled both really well, her blood gases were going up amazingly well, they were getting ready to change the vent she’s on. The one there switching to is for babies who are not as sick. They did a head ultra sound this morning and had the results back already, which showed a little bleeding on both sides but only in certain views the ultra sound will be repeated in a week just to be safe. But as of right now Dr.Martin is saying it shows no sign of long-term developmental problems or cerebral palsy.

OH and as long as Delilah keeps doing well through the night they will start feeding her tomorrow!

Keep the prayers coming they are working! Yes it’s still a very long road but every good day Delilah has helps improve my faith in god, I really wish there was a different way to test my faith in god then with my kids!

Monday, May 9, 2011

A wake up call

At 6:40am we got a horrible wake up call, one of our nurses Judy called and woke us up with a message from Dr.Martin hurry and get to the NICU! Delilah had a very rough night and was having an even rougher morning, when they called they were not sure which way thing's were going to go. At that point she was just holding on. Once we got to the NICU Dr.Martin came out to meet us (which seeing her scared the hell out of me) She explained to us about the bleeding in her lungs the night before and about how aggitated she was all night and in the am, they had gotten her stable and calmed down and also sedated her so she could relax in case she was in pain. Dr.Martin was telling us "well she has to do what I say casue im not ready to let her go" (I love Dr.Martin) once thing's settled down they had to redo Delilahs blood gases and they were GREAT! you couldnt even tell see had anything happen over night!

Dr.Martin had warned us that we could get a call in the middle of the night and she warns there will be more and just try and be ready for them. Which you really cant be ready for the call saying hey your kid might die soon hurry and get here. I do feel very lucky to have the team working with Delilah that we have, all our nurses and dr's really do care about what their doing. Dr.Martin was crying when she saw us, which they had just gotten Delilah stable.

Now Rick and I are exhausted hoping Aria doesnt feel the stress from us, I asked Rick if he could see the color drain from my hair and turn grey instantly lol

Please keep Delilah in your prayers

Sunday, May 8, 2011

ups and downs

this afternoon when Rick and I went to the NICU, Dr.Martin was super excited! Everyone in the NICu was doing the happy dance for Delilah and how well she did all day yesterday all night and this morning. Her levels were all doing wonderful, she was tolerating her diaper changes super good and anytime they had to go into her isolet she did amazing. Delilah was doing so good we actually got to touch her for the 1st time, when I say touch her i mean we could stick our hand in and touch her hand for a few minutes. She held Rick's hand :) (well finger) and i got to rub her head and feel her hair <3

There was talk about taking her off the oscelator (vent) she's on and putting her back on the other one which is a big step, but when I called today at 8pm i found out she had bleeding in her lungs again that happened aaround 4pm :( it was just a small bleed but it's still blood where it doesnt belong. It stopped and around 6pm so they were not checking her blood gases for a few hours so she could rest. They were going to check them again a little after i called, so hopefully thing's didnt go down to bad.

These are the ups and downs we were told would happen and to be ready for it, but it's the hardest thing to be ready for and to deal with. Hopefully when we go up there tomorrow we get some good news. please keep praying for Delilah

Saturday, May 7, 2011

The smell of rain

At the end of this story, it gives you two options. I think you will figure out what option I chose.

A cold March wind danced around the dead of night in Dallas as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. She was still groggy from surgery.

Her husband, David , held her hand as they braced themselv es for the latest news.
That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency Cesarean to deliver couple's new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing.

At 12 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature.

Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs.

'I don't think she's going to make it,' he said, as kindly as he could.

'There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one'

Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Dana would likely face if she survived.

She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on.

'No! No!' was all Diana could say.

She and David , with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four.

Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away

But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana. Because Dana's underdeveloped nervous system was essentially 'raw', the lightest kiss or caress onlyintensified her discomfort, so they couldn't even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love.
All they could do, as Dana struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl.

There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger.

But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there.

At last, when Dana turned two months old. her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time.

And two months later, though doctors continued to gently but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero, Dana went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted.

Five years later, when Dana was a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life.

She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she was everything a little girl can be and more. But that happy ending is far from the end of her story.

One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving , Texas , Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park where her brother Dustin's baseball team was practicing.

As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby, when she suddenly fell silent . Hugging her arms across her chest, little Dana asked, 'Do you smell that?'

Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied, 'Yes, it smells like rain.'

Dana closed her eyes and again asked, 'Do you smell that?'

Once again, her mother replied, 'Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain.'

Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced,
'No, it smells like Him.

It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest.'

Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children.

Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along.

During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive fo r them to touch her, God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well.

May 7th am

Well so far this morning Delilah seems to be doing rather well, one of our favorite nurses Bonnie has her this weekend so that made me very happy :) Her blood gases (carbondioxide) is looking really good and went up after they changed her tube for the vent, which we hope it continues going up. This will be a long road and  bumpy road. longer and bumpier then what we dealt with with Aria. so somedays well be good somedays will be bad, we just gotta hold on tight and have faith that god knows what he's doing.

Cinco de Mayo

So I decided to start this as a way of keeping track of all that’s going on with Delilah and also so I can share with everyone what is going on with her, instead  of trying to remember who i told. This is a very scary thing we're dealing with and I know i sugar coat a lot of stuff so nobody worries.

So let’s start at the beginning, this was our 3rd pregnancy 2nd to last longer than 2 month, Delilah was conceived without fertility which was an amazing deal for us and very surprising :) as the pregnancy got further along we got more comfortable with it since the dr's said everything was going great, she was measuring at all the right spots during the ultra sounds (which out 1st daughter did not) When I hit 23 weeks I started getting very scared since that’s when things started going bad with our 1st daughter, but ,my ob was very optimistic and felt everything would be good since my blood pressure was still good, so at 24 weeks we came for our normal regular ultra sound this was supposed to just check her weight and growth and also a fetal heart check cause of heart problem that run in my family.

During the ultra sound she (we knew it was a girl at this point) was moving very little and would not uncurl for some of the things they needed her to do. So my ultra sound tech said she was goin to get the dr (my worst nightmare) as Dr.Murrphy came in she looked concerned started doing the ultra sound and informed us there was very little amniotic fluid,  As she said this she also said I had to admitted into the hospital ASAP! I couldn’t even hear anything else she was saying i instantly started crying; thank god my husband is stronger than i am and held it all together so he could hear what was going on.

Delilah was not producing any amniotic fluid, due to an obstruction in the cord and that was causing a reverse flow. Basically something was blocking the tube so she wasn’t getting everything she needed for nutrition and oxygen without the nutrition she wasn’t growing anymore.  so I got admitted on April 27th and was told our goal was 28 weeks, this would have meant hospital tell the end of May. I was on bed rest but could get up to shower and go to the bathroom, which i could deal with that. Over the weekend we got excited because Delilah started producing fluid so it looked as if we'd be able to make it another 4 weeks.

But on Monday May 2nd I had an ultra sound with the dr again and thing’s took a turn for the worse, Delilah had stopped making fluid. so I had to be moved to labor and delivery for constant monitoring. This meant hooked up to the fetal machine (the bands around your belly to hear baby’s heart beat and contraction monitor) I could not move from my back since Delilah was so small it was hard to keep her on the monitor all the time. At first i was allowed to get up and use the bathroom but not for long, I was on complete bed rest with a catheter. I was put on magnesium and with magnesium you are a fall risk and have to be watched closer than normal. I had to have ultra sounds twice a day to make sure Delilah was ok, and that was on top of the nonstop fetal monitoring. with the fetal monitoring she would have these thing's called D-cells which is where her heart rate would dip down below normal and there guessing that’s from her cord getting squished and nothing was getting to her, it would  go back up but it was a scary thing to see and hear. if she had fluid in there it wouldn’t be a problem.

Every day the dr’s would ask, how much longer can you do this? Since it was a lot for me to deal with the would ask and everyday id say 28 weeks! Yes i was irritable and grumpy from time to time but in all honesty who wouldn’t be? I felt perfectly fine never felt sick (which would have made me happier if i did feel sick) but i wasn’t ready to have a baby that early.  On May 5th Dr.Kazzie (Dr.Murphys partner) had informed me it was probably going to be the day if there was no change in her fluid for the better. so bright and early they started prepping me for a C-section but they were still holding off on the official word until the ultra sound.

Rick and I sat there as they did the ultra sound and found out Delilah had no fluid at all and during the ultra sound she had a lot of D-cells. Dr.Kazzie said alright, we left her in as long as we could we HAVE to have her out today before it gets worse. (strangely I didn’t know it could get worse) so Rick and I started making our calls, text and facebook announcements when i was swarmed LOL (yes swarmed) when you have to have a C-section and things could get worse fast they kind of hurry. It was very overwhelming we really thought we had like an hour or so tell surgery but no way lol.

Delilah was born at 10:49am weighing 1lbs 3.5 ounces and measured 12 1/2inches long.  once she was out they had said there was zero fluid, but she came out crying (an amazing sign) they had to put her little body into a plastic bag to try and seal in heat as fast as they could. Rick got some pictures and even one with his hand next to her to show how small she is.  I got to kiss her before they rushed her to the NICU to start evaluating her and getting her warmer. Rick went an hour later to check on her and she was doing ok but we were still waiting on a lot of things to come back and test to be done. After recovery i was taken to see her for a few minutes but put back on magnesium to make sure my blood pressure didn’t cause seizures.

I wasn’t on mag as long as the 1st pregnancy so yesterday (may6th) i was taken off bed rest and got to go see Delilah, We can’t touch her or hold her since her skin is so fragile, we can just look. She gets over stimulated very easy so the NICU has to keep it even quieter in there for her. Delilah’s 1st night in the NICU was a rough one, she had bleeding in her lungs but they got it to stop right away. They had to change her ventilator to one that shakes her nonstop but it's supposed to be better. As of today I haven’t gotten any updates or seen her since they just started doing rounds and I can’t go in yet. This 1st week will be a very intense scary week as they try and keep Delilah settled, she is very feisty and moves a lot more than expected. They have her blood pressure under control now and her blood sugar is good. :) There will be days were nothing happens or will have days were everything goes insane but i will try and post on here, maybe it will help my sanity to put thing's down here.