Along for the ride

In the last 17 days I have heard countless people tell Rick and I how strong we are for going though what we’re going through, for the 2^nd time I don’t feel it’s us who are strong it’s our kids we’re just along for the ride. I cant just walk away from my daughters cause they were born early, I cant fix either of them or console when their get poked at countless times a day. All I can do is sit there and pray God has a bigger plan for all of us and that hopefully we see the big picture one day.

I have had my issues with believing in God and trusting he knows best (those who know me know what I have been through and what I have lost to where I feel this way) but he has shown us with Aria he is listening. So far with Delilah he has shown he is listening, I hope he keeps listening so my prayers sound like prayers and not non-stop begging. Delilah is a tiny tot but very feisty and so damn beautiful! I am truly amazed and in awe of my girls and the strength they have (and don’t even know it).

Delilah is 17 days old today! She weighs 540 grams (that’s 1lbs 3oz) she gained 30 grams since yesterday, she had lasiks yesterday to help get rid of her chest congestion and is more alert today (while I was there she slept the whole time lol) she is on 25% oxygen with her CPAP still in (it’s a step up from a true nose canula) in a couple of days they are talking about taking her off the CPAP and putting her on the regular canula which is different oxygen and a step from breathing on her own.

There have still been a few issues with her blood sugars, which they think they figured them out by lowering her sugar in her TPN to 5%. They had to stop feedings for a day or 2 cause she has a spot on her belly that sometimes looks gray and sometimes looks normal, they checked her for infection did X-rays the whole nine yards and everything looks great and she’s showing no signs of been sick. But since she’s so little and so preemie holding the feedings is a safety precaution to make sure her intestine doesn’t get messed up.

Her nurses are AMAZED at how little she is and how great she’s doing. We’re hoping she isn’t sick in her tummy and feedings can start back up tomorrow, and praying she gains some weight on her skinny little frame!! Well praying for more then that but you people already know that hahaha.

Again thank you to all of you praying and for keeping up on our tiny little tot, knowing so many people out there care so much blows me away, and you all give me strength to get through this roller coaster that’s my life.  I love you all!

Sorry it's such a dark picture, if you look close you can see she's smiling :)